Attempts

Im thinking about attempting the 30 Day blogging challenge not because I have alot to say but I need to practise my writing to get unstuck. I can't seem to write fiction at the moment . It's all a bit heavy. I've been listening to Dave Ramsey again. It's still getting under my skin! Same as Penelope Trunk , Tony Robinson and my tutor on the never ending writers course that I'm doing(why I thought no deadline was good is beyond me)I say I want advice and to improve myself but I don't actually want to hear it! I get defensive,have to calm down and then I see the wood for the trees. It's difficult to be objective about ones own life yet we know exactly what everyone else should do. We aren't as emotionaly invested and love to meddle anyway. We are all experts-we are prone to not admitting we don't know. I'm appreciating more the help I have and the help my parents had when I was young. We don't realise until we have to adult ourselves.Whether we are parents or not.I won't say we take it for granted ,it's more a case of we assume evryone else's family helps them .The odd tenner thrown our way ,the phone credit top up or the the food parcel. Instead we miss it it when it stops. When nothing else is coming in to fill the void. When you don't get a break from having to make all the decisions and organise all the back up. When we get decision fatigue, when we have to carry the anxiety of making sure some else is taking care of your kids when you have  to do something else.I'm luckier than most. I'm around alot of the time. My Airbnb is seasonal and and so is the Glasshouse work which means I can largely suit myself. My boss in The Glashouse is flexible, thats partially his personality and partially that its difficult to get people now to do the work. So I tend to be able to re jig  to suit things. I like this-I've loads to do but it's not pressurised. I'm not an organised person so the Airbnb app and my bosses texts help as I can check back and re read them plus Airbnb sends reminders. My daughter is 13 now so if she had to let herself in and I be fine for a short period of time if I'm coming back from either. I used to love that bit of safe independence as a child. My Grandmothers house was only over the road from my parents and Dad used to be around the farm when Mom was at work so I could flit between the two places. She likes it too, heats some food I've left in the microwave and curls up watching Youtube videos for a break after school. We do sit at the table too-I'm not bothered if it's just the two if us. In fact people think she's very quite and mannerly, generally she saves the noise and cutting loose for at home.She's really funny but wouldn't share that with alot of people as she's wary of reactions. Will they laugh or critisise?