Critisism

I'm writing to practice writing ie done is better than good. I don't have my photo on on my blog but have my name. I want to to write in a way that if I left my blog open and my people read it all that I would be ok with that.You can judge a persons character by what they would do if they definitely would not be found out. I can't remember where I heard that phrase but it resonates. We can all be horrible anonomously. If you know it can't be traced back to you it can be all to easy to be vitriolic and mean. To spew our temporary bad mood out on the world where it will still leave its  mark after it has calmed down.Everyone gets annoyed with people. I usually mutter to myself and talk myself around after a minute ie 'I forget things too sometimes. Or need a favour too so I'll do this for them'.

Dipping in and out of Irelands Dancing with the Stars. Thats generally what I do with reality tv.It equally draws and repels me I'm envious in some ways of their willingness to put themselves out there and try the Tango without any previous dance experience not so much the Bushtucker trials on I'm a Celebrity.First Sates, Don't Tell The Bride, half the time I'm genuinely hoping they are actors ,lots of it is staged! It's sad really because when we are children we don't think about being laughed at or failing. We start off  in Junior infants shouting 'Me , Me , Me!' when the teacher asks a question and as we go on along less hands are raised.We are afraid of being wrong. We start to think about our limits , what we can't do, what we would look stupid doing.Sometimes we do try something perceived as 'out of character' , healthier diet , Pilates , going on the dry for awhile .This doesn't always go down well with friends and family. It can hold a mirror up to things they don't like about themselves or we can no longer be blamed for being the one who leads them astray.We end up pigeon holing ourselves. It's amazing to see when people do branch out and people get used to them in their new incarnation how successful they can be.From model turned actresses slash fashion designer slash tv presenter. We often forget where  people started off.

Acceptance

I'm going to be 35 this year. Which means my eggs are 35 too. Pregnancy is still possible but fertility drops off after this. I have family members who couldn't have kids, some adopted. Still others just didn't have them (well one is a priest)  because they didn't want them or held out and married later. It was always in the back of my mind that I may never have any as it doesn't just happen automatically. I understood not everyone that gives birth wants to or can care for their children so they are doing their best by giving them a chance with another family. I reproduced when I was 21. She wasn't planned -I don't regret this. Left to my own devices I would have overthought it. She has a half sister in Germany whom she has never met. I split up with her father. We were speaking then his number wasn't in service anymore. I think he procrastinated and now doesn't know how to get back to us. I'm not angry at him more disappointed that I couldn't manage to make it easier for the two of them to stay in contact. I have somebody else in my life now but children never happened. She's it. I'm a bit sad about in one sense as he would love a mini version of him but on the other hand he loves my girl.

tourism and hospitality

Trying Airbn again So far a few bookings but its early yet. I have an extra bed which has to be put together. I need to update my listing and up price a little. I need to buy some new towels and checkout my bedlinen. I did forget some things but people were nice and left decent reviews. They kindly let me know privately so I could fix it. Its very seasonal though not a massive amount of bookings in Winter. Traffic is a bit of and issue in Summer so need to become more efficient re time traveling and cleaning. I did better than I thought I would. I would love to add value . Will have to see.