Not quite managing a blog per day on average though it is probably going to work out. I'm up so early as a my daughter is gone to Cork shopping for a friends birthday. The mother doesn't love driving (but is still a lot better than myself) and is going to Killarney and then getting the train. It's nice she's taking them but I think my one will get bored after a bit. She does not love shopping as much as the rest of them. . She isn't mean with money, she has no problem loaning money or buying a friend something if they were short of cash.It's just she'd rather hold onto it. The novelty has worn off a bit as we have been to Tralee loads recently as a family member had to go to the hospital. I don't know did I love it either. It's hard as a girl, people criticise if you dress up , dress down, reveal too much, cover up( in their opinion ).Wear make up, too much make up, no make up. It has always been there but in some ways has become more unrealistic.
I've seen several memes of the Kardashians, when they were chubbier and uncontoured, saying 'See I'm not ugly, just poor'.It's mean but the point behind it is we can all have an awkward stage and even when we grow out of it we may need the help of makeup artists, personal stylists, dieticians, personal trainers and maybe even surgery, not to mention airbrushing, lighting, angles, posing and photoshopping to look like present-day Kardashians. I mean they don't even look like themselves when they get up in the morning
People unintentionally(or don't want to care ' sure it was said to me') say hurtful or uncomfortable things about kissing boys or you don't don't like dressing up. We went to a cousins wedding in the summer and I think the nagging about what we were going to wear put myself and my daughter off going to one again. In fairness, I find them a bit long anyway. But my Mother went on and about how she might accept a jumpsuit if my daughter wouldn't wear a dress. She thought she was being funny and jokey but it just made my daughter uncomfortable. My Mothers friend did it too, even worse,. She's a really nice person whom I like a lot but I can't unnoticed how much she cares about appearance My daughter really likes comfortable sportswear at the moment. In fairness I felt crappy too as there were visitors coming to my boyfriend's house the same weekend, 2 bathrooms were being finished off and still more cleaning to be done. I had Airbnb changeover the Sunday and Glasshouse work the monday. I'm never this busy!
The wedding was a friday and they were coming the Sat. And I got my period. I wore a dress from the wardrobe. I don't have loads of clothes but I do have some dresses/shoes that make rare appearances for occasions. I was waiting to see which would work as unfortunately, our figures can change temporarily due to hormones.
It stressed me out. I did get my hair and makeup down. I wasn't going to bother but I'm rubbish at doing either. I left early. I had a headache - 2 dispirin cured when I went home. In fairness, if I had been more relaxed I probably would have made the effort to go across to the shop for dispirin and toughened on. But I just didn't feel like it. My daughter wasn't bothered either. She wore a dress and white converse. The converse arrived the day before the wedding as she really couldn't concenetrate and choose as she felt she was being judged. I got out of her she might like a blue dress. I ordered two from ASOS the week before. One ended up looking cheap, not as good as the photo, was small sizing too. The second was Ted Baker, reduced. The sizing was a little bigger and it looked better than the photo. She didn't love a teeny lace detail which was sheer under the bust line but she wore it with a denim jacket over it and left that on for the day. She wasn't suppered comfortable but she was ok and I had stress over. I din't even think very much about what I was going to put on. And you know what with hair and makeup done it finished it. The dress was a Penny's one my Mother had passed on to me which had a bit of a peplum and strech so my bit of a tummy wasn't squiseh and I could eat. I will never wear spanx but commend peple who can.The Ted Baker was just fitting me so I may get a go out of it as I can't see her wearing it again.
I'm no fun anymore anyway. I try not to drink alot now, I have a man so not bothered about that or dancing. I wish I did like waltzing etc or the disco. I usn't mind the disco part so much before but now I just could't be bothered. My Mother in law said her husband used to go drinking at the bar and she'd usually sit talking and watching the dancing but that gets old after a bit. I'm more self concise about being invited to things but not having events myself . Others are more entertaining, have better sounding jobs, are just more craic. I find I generally amn't bothered but do worry sometimes about making my daughters circle small. But she's an introvert too yet plays sports and has friends. She prefers to text people rather than call same as me and to to be in contact all the time . We need downtime. Peple dont always get that and unfortunatly can alienate our extraverted friends. I need to grow a hide as thick as a rhinos but not sure how to do that. My Grandmother did say my bladder was too close to my eyes
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