Wednesday, 20 June 2018
Extending my comfort zone
Stuffed with a headcold, dreading and looking forward to a football festival thing my daughter got picked to go to. My daughter is going on the bus and I'm getting a lift I think or I may have to drive part of the way. thats stressing me. Especially if its not my car-only myself and my boyfriend are insured in that. I may have to add Lucie or she may have to add me. I've directios printed out plus with the Sat Nav we might have some clue If I could do the first part of the journey I mighn't be too bad. Its far outside my comfort zone. I don't like driving my old Toyoto through my local town on a busy day.I've no pints on my licence. Thats alot to do with me not driving too far.Ive been breathalysed once -i could have driven up through a village and avoided them but my NCT , tax, Insurance etc were up tp date and I was coming from an under 12's match so I didn't think it was a bad thing for my daughter to see.I hadn't been drinking and I knew the guard to see so it was fine.Its more anxiety of people judging me, of getting lost and stressed and people shouting , telling everyone about my fuck ups.My anxiety is about a thousand times better than it used to be though but it's still there and very real to me.
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